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The Real MeCharades was the game we always played.
Except no one was there to ever guess.
No one seemed to care about what I was.
They couldn't see through my disguise at all.
They didn't even try.

I keep it all bottled up.
Everything bottled up inside of me.
No one tries to dig deep enough,
To break the seal on what's hiding the real me.

They all take my answers of "I'm fine",
But I really want someone to say,
"No you're not."
And actually try to find
The real me.

05 January 2012
Counting...1, 2
To feel pain pursue,
3,4
To cry some more,
5, 6
To cut my wrists,
7, 8
Oh how I hate,
9, 10
Losing faith again...
Love FreefallIn my heart I know there is the terrible feeling that I'm
                                                                                       s
           
Ready.Ready to kill,
Ready to fight,
Ready to learn,
Ready to forget,
Ready to hate,
Ready to love,
Ready to know,
Ready to not,
Ready to stand strong,
Ready to cry,
Ready to believe,
Ready to lie,
Ready to fake happiness,
Ready to feel the sadness,
Ready to accept,
Ready to deny,
Ready to live,
Ready to die.

Some things never change.
TabooWhen I first met you...
you revealed your dark ideals.
Yet, others don't understand...
the way I truly understand you.

Your ideals are considered taboo.
You interest yourself in dark things...
like a cult performing dark magic...
under a black and sinister moon.

Your mind is dark and dirty...
to those who do not understand.
Yet you submerge yourself deeper...
into that deep dark taboo.

You search for one to understand you.
Yet, nobody chooses to listen to your taboo.
You're being forced down a long and dark tunnel...
one deeply full of darkness and hatred.

Yet, I am one of the few who understand you.
I understand your deep an
I Love You
i wish i was just a writing.
At least then you'd know how i feel
because i'm so tired of hiding
my pain when we all know I'll never heal.

you can't know why i feel this
when you don't even look at me
and i'm so full of distress
from a heartbreak that's bloody

i don't know how
you could break what never healed
but someway, somehow
the membrane has been pealed

these tears are my kiss good-bye
so watch them die on my lips.
and you may never know why
i abuse these acid trips

i don't care how long this takes
because i know how i feel is true
we all know you're why my heart breaks
and it's because...
...I still love you.
Just LostI don't wanna be lost again,
In this world made of pain,
I'm tired that you're my captain,
Saying that I'm only vain.
I wanna be proud of me one time,
But it seems that for me it's a crime,
They don't want to let me be who I'm,
I just want to show I can be prime.
I wanna change and stop all these tears,
I cried because they played with my fears,
They laughed again and again all these sneers,
Tried to destroy myself and he disappears.
Don't leave me alone here and lost,
I don't wanna act in my life like a ghost,
I have the habit to be broken because most,
Of the people did it to me before and boast.
Pity's PartyCome on, just look at me,
I lost Happy to Misery,
In a dance with Pedigree,
Amidst the sirens of Apathy,
In the mosh pit in my head.

Can't you see how fun I am?
When my Pride's on the lam,
Sipping Sorrow like Baby Cham,
Falling foul of Honesty's scam,
On the dance floor in my chest.

I look so grievously good,
Doing what Agony should,
And what Depravity would,
In command of the red regiments stood,
On the catwalk of my wrist.

I can hear them pounding,
Watching and surrounding,
Laughing and floundering,
With Pain and Woe hounding,
In the nightclub of my gut.

My guests are saying to,
Cheer no longer pulling through,
Despair
LamentationTeeth grit so tightly that the jaw aches.
Hands clenched so sternly the body begins to shake.
Eyes narrowed so fiercely they appear closed.
Blood trickles from a cut palm and bitten lip,
and still the chuckles ring.

Stop laughing.

Loud cries ring in silence.
There is no reaction.
Fists batter a wall.
No one notices the dents.
Angry tears flow down reddened cheeks.
No one passes a glance.

Look at me when I talk to you.

Let the scream start from the broken heart,
and allow it escape through parted lips.
Shatter the bars that enclose the battered heart,
and break free with bared teeth.

Don't ignore me.

My blood is as red as
Can My Death?Can my death end hate crimes?
Can my death stop the war in Iraq?
Can my death cure AIDS?
Can my death help the kids in africa?
Can my death end racism?
Can my death stop animal cruelty?
Can my death cure cancer?
Can my death help homeless people?
No, my death won't solve any of this.
But it will save me from this living hell.
Tragic CoincidenceI wrote of a bullied suicide
A girl who could no longer handle the hurtful names
The thoughts that went through other's minds

Little did I know
It was happening right before my eyes
Not of the same type of bullying
But bullying nonetheless

She showed no signs
No symptoms at all
To make any of us believe
She wanted out

Just a week before the occurrence
I was thinking of suicide
What it was like
How people need to realize it is real
To realize bullying can easily cause it

I hoped and prayed the domino effect
Would not reach my circle of friends
I guess my prayers were not answered

How?
Why?
We do not know
We do not underst
Inevitable Ending.I cry out.

Drip,
Drip,
Drip.

The tears collect:

Drip,
Drip,
Drip.

Creating an ocean

Drip,
Drip,
Drip.

In which I shall surely drown.

Drip,
Drip,
Drip.
An honorable love...I feel thy silken softness
Thy hand ensconced in mine
Wondrous heavenly rapture
Oh to cease the flow of time

Canst thou not know this heart
Yet place such tender kiss
Do these eyes my truth betray
In face of fleeting bliss

Sweet the voice of welcome
Thy words melodious wine
Oh honeyed apparition
Of womanhood divine

How I long to hold thee
Yearn to call thee mine
And yet the fates uncaring
To dreams and fantasy confine

Thou wears an others ring
Though loveless and forlorn
I see the deepest sadness
For all that thou hast sworn

So love remains unspoken
Silenced for manners sake
Convention heroically upheld
While weeping he
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Love is like a flower.
One day, it just gives up
And dies.
Or it is just killed off.
Pulled apart.
Destroyed.
You can do with a flower what you wish,
And love is no different.
Give it to someone,
And they're happy.
Pull it apart,
Figure out if that one person loves you,
But in the end it's gone.
You say you love that person now,
But it ten years,
You won't even remember that pain.
Some may,
But most won't.
Love is like a flower,
You can nurse it and let it grow.
Or you can watch it wither away.
It's your choice.
But in the end,
It won't last for too long.

04 January 2012

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Okay before you bombard me with "Love can last forever"s let me explain.

I know love can last forever, because I live with my Grandparents. Who have loved each other for over fifty years! So I know, I really do.

What I've written are my words, and what's in my heart. It's what I feel. It's a teenager thing. But it's mainly just me.

So please don't send me comments saying, "Love can so last forever!" or "Love can't be pulled apart unless you let it be pulled apart!" because really, I don't care. Read the paragraph above.

Anyways,

Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy. I apologize if I seem a bit rude. I'm really a fairly nice person.
©2012-2013 ~sakura-chan82
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!KeihatsuOkami Jan 5, 2012
TAT
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Your poems are so well written TAT
They make me cry both f the whole thing of it and jelousy TAT
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Mood: Wow! ~BessieLikesDinosaur Jan 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is a really beautiful poem!
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